by Vasile Onica
The commencement of one`s inner world is when that person realizes what his mind is capable of, what he feels, what are his dreams, hopes, simply when he understands his mind and his inner self and then starts to build up his character that is tied up to that inner world.
Van Gogh once said: “So what do you want? Does what happens inside show on the outside? There is such a great fire in one’s soul, and yet nobody ever comes to warm themselves there, and passersby see nothing but a little smoke coming from the top of the chimney, and go on their way.” (The letters of Vincent Van Gogh). Some of us know what we want, we want to be happy, loved and live a fulfilling life. But, somehow, the series of events in our lives, the failures in our plans and love and the effect that some people had on us compels each and every one to build walls, so high, that no one could ever see what is beyond them. We create a stronghold inside us, and we are retreating there in our hardest moments, the unhealthy fact is that the stronghold reminds us of bad things that happened at a certain point, and that’s bad. As Van Gogh said, we should seize the walls and bring them to the ground and we should create and embrace the fire within us, our inner world should be a warm place. We should stop chasing after people that can make us happy. Sometimes we are our reasons of happiness, we are the best advisers, when the times are cold we don’t need to warm up in one`s arms, we can go in ourselves, sit beside the fire and tell stories of our best moments and then go out in the real world with a smile on our face, and healed, and passersby won`t see only a little smoke on the top, they will also feel the warmth that`s coming from inside you.
Who are we when no one is looking? That depends on everyone, in the real world some of us tend to change just to blend in a certain group, we shape-shift to match the surroundings. We are all animals at origins but we limit our urges to comply to society rules. The only place where we are truly free is when we close our eyes and free ourselves from the mandated society chains, but when we open the eyes we feel responsible to carry out a good deal of purposes that makes us humans. Our negative thoughts can create anxiety, depression, resentment- an array of emotions. This kind of thinking can lead to addictions and destroy our self-confidence. Many think that emotions come and go quickly without us noticing them, but with awareness and an attitude of self-compassion we can redirect these thoughts into more positive ones. I would like to present you and old Cherokee Indian legend about two wolves: An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. The child said that a fight is going on inside him. The old answered that it is a terrible fight between two wolves. One is evil- he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority and ego. The other is good- he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith. This fight is going on inside every person. The child, confused, asked which one will win, then, the old Cherokee simply answered “The one you feed”. Our thoughts can be our own worst enemy. That is, if we let them. Think about how you may be “feeding” your negative thoughts by allowing them to rule your mind. Next time you have a negative thought, catch it and ask yourself, “What is this thought doing for me?” You will find that the answer is that all they are doing is dis-empowering you. You can immediately feel more empowered by focusing on something good in your life and cultivate the practice of gratitude.
All of us has dreams, perfect life, perfect house, perfect car, but we are not motivated enough to keep chasing them because perfection can never be achieved. We should stop dreaming about perfection and start chasing the dreams of being happy because what makes us happy is not perfection, but knowing that in our own demise we learn that what make us unique are our own faults. Don’t give up on your dreams, carry on your way and when you get to the end of the road, you will get your reward. Be a better person, feed the right wolf, chase your dreams and you will achieve happiness.
Live your dreams, achieve them, make new ones, set up new goals, raise your walls so that no one can take a peek but make sure you build a gate so that when time is right you receive the payment and open it wide for people to enter and cherish your amazing inner world: unique and beautiful in its own way.